July 28, 2007
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Long, Busy Week
Whew, what a week. Whirlwind. It started off nicely with a visit from our friend Josh. Josh is one of the most interesting characters and thinkers I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. I greatly enjoyed his thought provoking/sharing manner of speech. Hope he enjoyed his visit. Felt like we ignored him most of the time and left him to fend for himself as far as food and entertainment went for large chunks of time. Ah well.
Later in the week Steve’s Mom and Dad came into town to stay for a few days. They are looking for houses in the general area and thinking about moving out here. They are really enjoying seeing Noelle again for the first time since she was a tiny new born!
To top off our week of company Tim and Kalyn also showed up! It has been so wonderful to see them again as a very happy, married couple. My memories of them are all wrapped together with my early memories of Steve and our parallel courtship/engagement days together. They married a month before we did, and met each other for the first time at the same meeting that Steve and I met. So amazing to see where we all are now compared to just two short years ago.
My thoughts are a tired, jumbled whirl. Too many late night conversations with Josh on top of days too busy to nap have successfully turned me into a candidate for the pumpkin award. Speaking of late nights Josh seemingly effortlessly revived my old coffee addiction. I am now thankful I didn’t give away our coffee maker, and have a small stash of it in the freezer for those days when I feel like indulging. Steve seems to be resigned to the fact that his wife can’t help her love of the dreadful brew. As long as I brush my teeth after consuming he’ll be happy.
I had my first “I want to just cry” moments as a Mom tonight. When Noelle gets hungry we usually have a solid 30 minutes or so of distracting, talking etc where she will remain calm but after a certain point she gives up hope of ever getting food again and starts to cry hysterically and inconsolably. Always (on the handful of occasions) before I’ve been able to nurse her within a couple of minutes of her hitting the “point of no return” but tonight was different. Long story short she ended up hysterically screaming her little heart out for thirty solid minutes until I could get home to nurse her.
It was one of those situations where we couldn’t stop, and due to slow traffic ended up being a longer drive home than planned. She could hardly breath, I know her throat is sore now and she seems to have a cough from crying so hard. It absolutely broke my heart. Her little eyes are red and swollen and the look on that tiny face when she was finally able to nurse! I suppose with time and more kids I’ll toughen up but for now it was the singularly most emotionally traumatizing incident of my very short career as a Mom.I need to go to sleep. Our little one is sleeping sweetly and peacefully.
I am off to do the same.
Comments (2)
Awwwh, poor mama and baby!
But just think of the babies whose mama’s do that on PURPOSE with scheduling.
We’re moving next week! I’ll try to call once we get all out of the old place and all into the new. xoxo
Beautiful pictures!! Noelle has changed even in the last two weeks!
I can echo your sentiments on the difficulty in hearing your child scream without much you can do about it. It is still hard for me. I have done the craziest things just to try to get Emma or Elliot to stop crying in the car. I suppose the people looking in our car windows must think I am crazy!