January 18, 2008

• About time for a new Adventure

  Feels like it has been months since I have posted a real, honest to goodness, picture free post.  I look back at my posts from years ago now from my days of singlehood.  Ah, to have that much time to write funny stories again! It is slightly embarrassing to have turned into one of those “Picture Posts” only people.  I used to secretly think it was just because they were lazy and didn’t have anything better in their life going on other than their kids.  The first part is false, but the second part is definitely true!

  I am toying with the idea of writing a book.  This would be laughable to anybody who knew how all my previous attempts at writing a book began and tragically ended.  Perhaps even laughable to think that I would ever attempt it in the first place.  I always start the same way.  Great idea, engaging characters etc etc etc.  Excitedly write away on it.  Start getting it out on paper, tweak it around until it has the style and flow that I want.  Get bored.  Quit writing.  Wish someone else would finish it for me.  Feel guilty that it isn’t finished so try not to think about it.   Bury it away until a new idea/story line strikes me and start process all over again.  This time though, I am really thinking about DOING it and FINISHING it.  I think underlying fear of rejection has held me back in the past.  If I never finish it, it’ll never hurt that it doesn’t get published. 

  Perhaps I am finally mature enough not to care.  To put the effort into getting the thing written out for ME.  Just so I can say I did.  Just so it’s done.   Steve has been so marvelously supportive of me in this.  Now it’s just up to me to  make it happen or not.  Although I feel more ready than I have ever been there is still the side of me that wants to hold back, to wait, to put it off yet again… Meh.  Enough of that.

  I think I shall begin this new adventure with the goal of finishing.  Not expecting anything amazing, or even good. I’ll be content with mediocrity.  Just to have a finished product will be a cool thing for me. 

  So let it be written…So let it be done!

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